MY LIFE PART 1

hello once again....finally im back again n this time im not going anywhere...u see ive been away for so long cos i tot i would not have anything to blog about..well my blog is going to have a new topic...n its going to be about me...ONLY me...u see,it has been like 2 years since i blogged... lots of things change in that past two years,i got a ne baby, i left my husband ,move away n now i started afresh...moving on to a new chapter...its 2011 now n i have lots to tell u..u see,the father of m kids just don bother about us,he never gave us a single penny ,he deliberately wants my mum to support us ....everytime his pay comes the next day all his money will be gone due to spending on online games,etc...he never buys food,milk or clothes for his children...he left for singapore to "work" but he never send back any money...NEVER...he never show me any affection or love...all his cares is about himself...ONLY himself...whenever ithink back i ve shud have listen to my parents...i shud have just either gave my son up for adoption or just be a single mom...but gueess wad, mistake makes u a stronger person, n i ve learned so much from that...and im not going to do the same mistake again..anyway sumtimes i miss MOON..hahahah remembr him??well he was da guy i had a relationship wif while i was still wif my husband..don get me wrong...he gave me all the attention i owes wantd from my husband..evrytime wenever i was wif him i felt like a million dollars..but i never had any LOVE for him just a fren n shoulder to tell all my problems to..i always wonder if he was married,he says he is not but i sumhow knew he was,ive stop contacting him wen i was pregnant wif my babygal,,but i owes think about him..i actually still does but i don think i will ever see him again...on AUGUST 2010 DATE 17 i gave birth to my babygal ivanka,guess wad, i drove myself to the hospital..why?cos my husband was not around he was away...i felt so out of place,all the pregnant ladies was wif their husband but where was mine?at dat moment i wanted Moon to be next to me but that time we both lost each other's contact..how i really needed him dat moment just to be with me...

who gives a damn if he's gay...I DONT

 HE IS SO HOT..THE NEXT AMERICAN IDOL SEXAYY ADAM LAMBERT..GUARANTEEEEEE

im back!!!!

 finally imback in the cyberworld ..gosh i bet u guys thinks dat im off the computer for two  months bcos of some pantang..like hell no..ive no pantang even after the departure of my father to the Lord..ive no pantang..the real reason is.,my damn freakin PC one of the wire got burn so dats y i didnt have the tiem to call the computer guy t repair..only today i called him to repair so now im here back in blog'sworld...  wad i have been up to?well,i went out wif my friends,coloured my hair cos my previous colour i wasnt satisfied wif it cos it wasnt obvious..but now oh well at least its obvious,mother's day is cmg this  sunday and i donno wad to get for my mum..any ideas anybody??  flowers?nahh so normal n my house is full of flowers already,cards?LAME~~~,chocolate?but then im the one who will be ending up eating hahhaha...maybe i'll order KFC  for the both of us to eat on that day...yea good idea,one 2 colonel chicken,one zinger burger,n one large fries...just me ivan n mummy..godd idea kah?or isit lame?or maybe i order regular pizza and she will cook sumthing extra hahaha hmm ok now im so blur..anyways.. ttyn,,<---how original...

Sorry for not updating. My computer hangus. Hehehe....

Sorry yah.

To Daddy,I Miss You..

dear daddy,

i still remember the time u always wake me up early morning at 5am and u will prepare a cup of ice milo and cook maggie mee for me before you send me to school.its a funny thing tho that even to we wake up so early,there will still be lots of cars on the road and you and me will be getting irritated by other drivers,and do you remember that when i was still in primary school ,u send me to school but you and i were busy talking away until you overshot the school junction then we laugh so you said "no need to go lah" so in the end we didnt go ,youi will send me home ...that was a real laugh,and everytime when u send me home from school,and if theres thunder lightning,i will call you on your hp and ask you to accompany at home just because im scared of the thunder...silly me summore i was in form 3 and 4 at that time ...

i know i was a daddy's girl but sometime i know you get angry at me becaus sometimes i don listen to you...but deep down in my heart i really love you and i will do anything for you..and i know you love me ..there were lots of beautiful memories..how i wish you could have won the battle but then i know you tried to come back to us but you cant...part of me in still very angry because you left me to fast,you didnt give me a chance to look in your eyes after your surgery,cause after the second operation you totally didnt wake up..you didnt response to any of the medication,and you will not be here to see Ivan grow up,and u promise end of this year we will go holiday and you plan lots of fun things for the future,part of me is like taking my life and to join you now.but because of Ivan,im thinking twice.and if im single,i will not hesitate to do so..but im also relieved youre gone cos if you survive,you will be depress cos you wont be able to work and enjoy a game of golf anymore..and it hurt so much to see you suffer...i miss you,i love you...im keeping some of your jacket and photos for memories...

DADDY I LOVE YOU, with love your darling daughter Chelle...

unentertained blog

*sorry for not updating..was in the most hottest,dirtiest,not my type of place,not my standards place...my hubby's ________*

im gonna be very busy starting tomorrow so im not gonna update my blog  as often as i owes does..please forfgive me..it will be only for a few day maybe 3 days...and hopefully i will force myself to blog tommorow.. i love u guys

one nite stand wif this girl..anyone interested?service lesbian too ..( gross)

            kinda disturbing actually..i was in this community website called www.lowyat.com something and this girl she was telling all the guys saying she wants sex but no string attached...gosh i tot she was hot but when i saw her pic ( above) i was like  ------->>> o____________O...   oh god...if its like bitchy looking sexy biatch i wouldnt mind but this?? she looks like * i dont wanna say it itss just too gross*....anywayssss  im shocked... she reminds me of someone in my school dats y i post this...LMFAO!!!!!!!! does guys even wanto sleep wif her??maybe too desperate...my cousin was like shivering while looking at her pic...