im letting everything go..

have u ever wish u cud just fly away and never to return because of such certain things in life.I wish i could but i cant..I did that before and the more i run away,its deja vu all over again.And it was like that few months ago.The feeling of rush and u noe,the infatuation with a guy.But,i that feeling is all over and i am so thankful it didnt happen.When i read my best friend's gwendoll blog about her post,it really give me the inspiration dat guys (some of them) suck..well dats not it actually..wad i mean love is not perfect,not be stupid waiting for a guy who is not into u..its true tho..thank god i dont cos its a total waste of my time not worth it..
oh yea,i know a person that is single (or in a relationship) god knows..dont care.anyway,about him.ok its a him..i like him dont care wheter he likes me..he told me this last time.."dont look for them,they will look for you"..okayyy dat was weird wen he say that cause,I KNOW YOU DON WANT ME TO DISTURB YOU MA!!!and worst i owes kena BSKL by him lagi *sigh* if ure reading this( u noe who u are) ..i know im pathetic but ure still my friend tho.heh..but when he told me he wan me to fall in love wif him OMFG!!wad were he thinking?????i was *gasp* obviously duhhh in the end i confess sumthing dat i shuoldnt have hahahahah.but now its ok,im totally letting everything go and i have move on and fall back in love wif my hubby ..congrats me k..but i think all this time it wasnt love i had for u,but infatuation or sum crush.thanks for dat "thingy" tho even tho u owe me back but i don think i want it anymore haha...and u don have to ignore me nor delete me from wherever haha..but i learn sumthing from all this thank you ..ok this post is sooo out of topic and why am i posting this?i was suppose to post about sumthing else..im so mentally block now ..maybe i listen to "if i were a boy" song from beyonce hahaa..im still trying to figure out wad was it..