a girl's broken heart...soon to be mended

as i gaze into my bedroom mirror i look at a girl smilling,putting on her mascara,lipgloss,eyeliner and latsly her green eyeshadow she loves so much and still wondering wad to wear..she may look very happy,very very happy but deep down inside her she still donno who is she really is ..and is she really happy..she is happy by giving life to a beautiful baby boy and a husband dat can protect her in every bad situation n chaos..but wad she really wants she knows she cant have..cos she noes wad she really wants is so impossible to get and to "memilliki " dat certain thing...her mind was going back into her high school life...she wish she was back there studying,hanging out wif her frens,not thinking wad to do the next day and worrying about life..all she has to do is eat sleep and study..thinking love is actually BS...who needs A boyfriend wen i can enjoy life haha..she was there..her soul was walking in her school compound chatting and laughing wif her frens.then suddenly reality hit her wen the sound of her baby crying asking for her attention... then she noes she is not there anymore..how time flies...she is now a young mother age 21 dealing wif a 10 months boy..she is happy but still not really happy cos she wish she could turn back time which it was two months ago...she wish to turn back dat time,dat day, and dat incident that happened dat month so she wounld have to face this dumb freaking annoying world ...and she wish to turn dat nite where she said the most embarrasing words to somebody she shouldn have..BIG MISTAKE!!now she is totally going crazy thinking why she said it and why she did it.dumb dumb dumb...and she heard the happiest words she owes wanted to hear BUT..was it real or fake she didnt noe..now she is in that confusing moment but she letting everything go by avoiding "u noe i noe"..oh well this is so pathetic but really gotta let things go but then her happiness is coming back again and dis time its forever.. ( i bet all of u is saying "wad the hell is she crapping about") haizz i noe hahah oh well